11,25 chapters in four years is… not great, I will be the first to admit

It's my 34th birthday, and thus, also the 4th anniversary of Pure Corruption. A bit of a cause for celebration, at least.

Of course, there's a chapter. Chapter 045: Aniara's choice is here for you. Yay!

Less yay is that holy shit it takes too long between chapters. I hate it. It makes me feel bad. Like I'm betraying the audience I'm hoping I have. I know that not keeping a good updating rhythm is a good way to lose an audience.

In part, it really is because I currently don't get any work. It just feels so unfair, here I got a job as exam hall monitor, was starting to get more hours, midterms was coming up was lots of chances for working and thus money... and then Corona hits. Exam hall closes down. I get shunted back into how it was before, where I just sit at home, dicking around on the internet, losing motivation to work on things. More free time doesn't necessarily mean anything meaningful will be done with it. Quite the opposite, really.

Don't take it the wrong way when I say that it makes me feel bad. It does not at all mean I want to give up on Pure Corruption. It means the exact opposite. But you know how it is.

Next chapter is in proofreading, and I'm working on untangling some small messes I've gotten myself into with writing the coming chapters of the volume. But there is a goal in sight. I'm really, really hoping that this is the year where I start getting this show back on track. At the very moment I can't make any promises, but I have felt more fired up about it. Especially this week. And that should mean good things.

So I'm hoping you're willing to stick with me a little longer.

Thank you.

/Kenny

Looks like it’s kinda working, at least.

Turns out that, yeah, working on another story for a while cleared some minor mental blocks I was having for the Pure Corruption chapter I'm working on. Instead of trying to force through the initial idea I had, after writing the other thing and then pondering the chapter again, I realized what I should do with a certain segment of the chapter and from there I believe it's going to be easier to get through the rest of it. Success!

That said, I haven't written too much on either thing this week - I've been getting some things done in the apartment instead. Got some boxes out of the way, optimized space, assembled a bookshelf that I've started populating. I've lived here for over 8 months by now, so it was about time...

/Kenny

If you had told me this three weeks ago I would have thought it was an early April Fools’ joke

So between 2004 and 2015 I was part of a fanfiction project called Next Era. Astute readers will notice a similarity to the URL. Yes, next-era.net was the domain we got for the website for it back in the day, and I still use the same hosting we got for it at the time. So when the time came to put this website up, putting it on a subdomain to that felt fitting. Anyway, it was a Mega Man X fanfiction project, and the final story published for it was one of mine, back in 2015. Since then, the most that was done with it was myself putting down pieces of a draft for something intended to be a finale to the whole thing in 2017-2018, as it never got a proper ending (well, I also broke the wiki while trying to update it in 2017, but that's irrelevant).

You're probably seeing where this is going.

Last month (starting in February, but anyway) I played through the Mega Man X Collections on Switch (do as I say and not as I do: Do not play Mega Man X7). This, especially Mega Man X8 for reasons, just got me in the mood for telling stories in that universe again, stories I was planning but never told back in its heyday... I had a lot of ideas in those days. Ideas that never became anything. Some ideas were in some ways transplanted over to Pure Corruption, some characters definitely owe parts of their personalities to Next Era characters. I can directly trace Rink back to one of them, even if Rink is very toned down from that "source". So anyway, I ended up doing a complete rewrite - a full remake, really - of the very first Next Era story I ever wrote, contacted two of the peeps from the old crew, and really did start writing one new story, one I had several plans for back at the time but never wrote. I thought I did start writing parts of it at some point, but I can find absolutely zero evidence that I ever did after digging through documents.

This in no way at all means I'm giving up on Pure Corruption! I'm rather hoping it's going to be a net positive, giving me another creative writing outlet, and the Next Era stories are chiefly oneshots of varying lengths, rather than one chronological chapter-by-chapter story starting at the very beginning and going to the very end. So it's a somewhat different approach to writing those stories, which could be useful to loosen up some writer's blocks I absolutely have from time to time. And I absolutely promise that Pure Corruption is where my main priority lies - it's absolutely my primary project and revisiting Next Era is, for the time being, a side gig. I still can't believe I'm actually doing it, but now I really, at the very least, want to finish this one I'm currently writing.

So... yeah.

Me getting in a writing mood just in general is good too now that everything is annoying and I don't get any work and don't make money.

Bah.

/Kenny

No, Corona didn’t get me

...but the place where I work did just get shut down and it's kinda hard to be an exam hall monitor from home, so, there's that.

I feel bad about not having done another update yet. My chapter plan is still in a bit of a tangle, I'll find some solution to it, don't worry, but these coming chapters are kinda important so I don't want to rush them. I also haven't heard back from my prrofreader so no chapters are currently completely ready for publication. And I'm sitting here with a Wikipedia tab open to read up on a thing to make a certain scene make sense.

So anyway.

I know I've said it a lot but I hope you have some patience with me and the current volume is the one I want to complete more than anything, so the one most frustrated about the lack of updates is absolutely me.

/Kenny

So that didn’t happen

So... okay... yeah. I didn't mean to lie, but... no more chapters in 2019. I hadn't heard back from my proofreader regarding the chapter in question, and then I ended up getting sick after Christmas, so... yeah.

I'm doing New Year's on my own this year, didn't feel like I should go out while still recovering. But 2020 is, as I've mentioned previously, the year where I hopefully turn everything around, since I start a new job in January, which is an extreme weight off my shoulders.

Chapter progress is good, but... is about to get a little odd, since what's supposed to be chapter 047 is getting so long that I am likely going to have to split it, and what's currently 048 might also need to be split, which might result in volume five getting one more chapter than had been planned, since I need that volume to end with a very specific scene. So if the chapter progress meters start moving in weird ways over the following month... that's why.

So that's where we are! Thanks for sticking with me throughout 2019, and I hope you'll stay around for 2020, which should be a big year for both myself and my projects - Pure Corruption first and foremost.

I'm excited.

So a Happy New Year to the lot of you! Happy New Decade, even!

/Kenny

Things are finally, actually, for real back on track.

It's not even Friday.

But I've published a chapter anyway, because it was about damn time. So here's Chapter 044: Anni and Rin-rin, for your reading pleasure. And as you can see on the progress page, there's quite a bit in the pipeline too. I fully intend to get another chapter published by the end of the year - not before Christmas though. But I'll certainly be doing a bunch of writing over my Christmas... "break", I guess you can call it.

For here's the good news: I have a job now. It's not in the field I have my master's degree in, but it is a job at the university, which should be good for connections in the future. Said job doesn't actually start for real until January, but I've been to the introduction for it, and I have one "trial" workday on Tuesday, and then one January 8th, and after that I can actually start working for real and get paid. Which means my free time is now free time, and not free-but-not-really-because-I-should-be-applying-for-jobs-time. It's been something that hasn't made me feel good, and was giving me a resounding feeling of "meh" about a lot of stuff. Having too much of not doing anything made me feel like I got burned out, in a weird way.

But that's all over now! Now that I have a job, I can use my free time on all my hobbies. Which will absolutely involve writing. So 2020 should be a much better year both for me personally and for Pure Corruption.

And just so I don't forget - Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa/Winter Solstice/whatever you celebrate!

/Kenny

Welcome to September

So. Hi.

The chapter progress page moved a lot for a bit, then slowed down. Chapter 046 has been at three and a half fruits for a bit. That's a half-truth, though - the chapter is basically finished as it is, it's not going to go over 3500 words, and I'm editing some stuff before sending it off to proofreading. Though I already have two chapters in that phase, and I don't want to give my proofreader too many chapters at once.

But I'm also considering if I, for reasons I'm obviously not spoiling, might have to do some rewrites of chapters 045 and 046. I need to discuss it with my proofreader too. I've been... not quite agonizing over it, but I keep second-guessing myself about it. Which is a reason things have not been super productive lately. Hopefully I'll get to publishing soon!

/Kenny

Things are settling down

And, again, things are me.

I've got my new apartment. There's still a lot to be done to make this into a home that I'll be completely comfortable in, but the computer is in place, internet's working, I have my Switch set up, and the kitchen is done enough that I can cook normally. Moving day was a complete disaster and one of the absolute worst days of my life, I will say that much - I was anxious about it and it still ended up a lot worse than I had ever imagined. But somehow, all the items made their way to the new building (except for a few I decided to just discard because it was probably time to replace them anyway), and things are slowly becoming better.

Week before that wasn't great either. I was away at a con, working karaoke as always, and I personally didn't have a fantastic time for several reasons. The actual karaoke was great - whenever I sang, I felt good, it was a lot of things surrounding it and the rest of the con that just made me not feel great. I'm too old to do cons like I used to.

On the flip side - I did get a lot written while at the con. So another chapter has now been sent off to proofreading, and the following one is at least more than halfway done. Still have other stuff to deal with - but publishing should actually finally resume shortly. Please be patient just a little longer.

/Kenny

Another update on me…

So! I've got an apartment lined up. Not the one I mentioned in the previous update, but another one in the same area. It's a nice apartment. Big. Open. Bright. Nice kitchen.

And it makes me extremely worried. Or, well, anxious. A little scared.

Not the apartment as such. It's a good apartment. And I'm pretty sure I'll like living there. Once I've settled in. Which is the entire thing, really - moving to another apartment is going to literally be the biggest change in my life since I moved into the apartment I'm moving away from, which I've lived in for over ten years. So of course I'm anxious - every routine I've made for myself, everything I've gotten used to in all my years of living here - practically all of it will get discarded and I'm going to have to start figuring out new ones. I'm sure it'll all be good once I've done that, but... it's probably perfectly natural for me to worry about it right now. I do have this tendency to worry that things are going to end up being "wrong", that I've made the wrong decision. At the same time, this is absolutely the best apartment I could get under the circumstances, and it is a good one. More central location.

So anyway.

Being anxious over that hasn't exactly been to the benefit of my writing, as I find myself less able to concentrate because of it. I'm certain it's going to turn out alright in the end, but I can't just magically become not anxious. Next week will be a lot of preparations (though most of it's prepared already, as I've mentioned in the past - the majority of my possessions are in boxes and furniture that could be disassembled has been disassembled), and the week after that I'm actually heading off to a con. I definitely need that break. And when I come back home, it'll be moving time, though I don't know yet exactly the date that's going to happen. I've got some phonecalls to make.

And once I'm in my new place, with the computer and router all set up, I can start building anew, and then I will absolutely be more able to get things written. I hope. Also got that part where I need a job, but, y'know...

/Kenny

Things are moving

And by things, I mean me. Soon. Anyway, I figured some update here was called for, since I still am not a point where I have a chapter to publish.

I've been continuing my job-hunting with no success, and am now also taking care of some other stuff. Plus, I have to move out of this apartment in a month's time - going to view a new apartment on Tuesday, which I'm first in line for, so chances are good that'll be my new place. A lot bigger and in a much better location, for only a pretty negligible increase in monthly rent. So that's cool.

And that's basically where I'm at. I have a variety of things going on at the moment. Since I don't have a job, you'd think I'd be writing more, and I do agree with you. But not having a job or anything at all, really, frustrates me to the point where I end up just doing nothing productive. Can you get burnt out from doing nothing? Because it's kind of feeling like that. If I had less free time, I'd probably make more of an effort to do more with it. Plus, I mean, having less free time would mean having a job, meaning having money to do things with, so there's that too.

Bah.

Well, I hope you'll still want to stick with me and be patient just a bit longer. Hopefully I'll have something else going on soon to pep me up.

/Kenny